PMS

Ruy texted me yesterday asking if I will be having my period anytime soon. Huh? Where did that come from? I didn't know where he got this accurate piece of information as he normally doesn't know (or care) about these things.

So I bugged him how the hell he knew. He sai "Hehehe.....attitude". WHAT? I wasn't fighting with him or anything yesterday. I wasn't being a psycho bitch. He said I wasn't as talkative as normal, so he knew my mood was different.

WOW...after 5 years of being together, I think my fiance is finally getting to know me. Galing!!

I LOVE RUY soooo much

Ruy asked me what time my breaks are today. I told him 730...at 7:20 he texts me this "I'm here in Eastwood, my mom's asking me to pay for her Citibank card again...can you come here and see me?"

My thought bubble at this point was "LIAR!". This was the same excuse he gave me last week as to why he was in Eastwood. Nevertheless I'm happy, I told my boss to block off my dinner break so I can go down without worrying about my clients.

I went down to meet him and he gave me 2 books, one for Helena, and one for myself. Inside the book for myself was ...MADONNA's ALBUM!!

I was literally screaming all over Eastwood...eventually I just said "Okay I'll keep quiet now" I'm sooooo happy!!!

Patric told me " remember this moment the next time you think ruy is a bad boyfriend, he brought you the greatest gift of alll...Madonna!"

I'm so happy...I'm so happy...I'm so happy!!

Something Different

I was going over the photos from my cellphone when I saw a picture of a bouquet of flowers from Ruy. I was feeling warm and fuzzy all over when I saw the date. December 5, 2004...hmmm...it has been 11 months since the last time Ruy has given me flowers?!!?! THis is an outrage considering the fact that I ADORE FLOWERS.

I was still thinking about this piece of info when my lola called me to lunch. During lunch she mentioned the lechon kawali Ruy gave me a couple of months ago. You see Ruy gave me five dishes for me to have baon to work each and every single day of the week!

I felt so bad about feeling bad...huh? Okay let me rephrase that, I felt so bad about doubting Ruy's sweetness and care for me. Ruy is truly atypical when it comes to displays of affection. He's never been a flowers and chocolate kind of guy. But he's always been able to show me how much he loves me...in different ways....MUSHY!!! Enough na

Integration

Our lives have always been very compartmentalized. Ruy's work, Ruy's family, Ruy's friends: Liv's work, Liv's family, Liv's friends...then Ruy and Liv together. I am a firm believer in having seperate lives, I don't believe in the two become one shit. Marriage involves 2 individuals not 2 halves of one whole.

Sometimes though it's fun to integrate each other into the other's life. Last Friday, I pleaded with Ruy for him to come to my company's 70's Costume Party. It's nice to see how the other lives, to see what the other does, who he/she hangs out with...etc.

Ruy, like any normal buman being is entertained, flabbergasted, and shocked with my office. I, meanwhile, am amazed at how normal his office is.

It's amazing how much our work reflects our personality. I am the wacky, funny, outrageous and naughty one, while Ruy is the serious, contemplative, nice one. Together, we even each other out. Patric (one of my best friends) said that God gave me Ruy to lessen the superficiality in my life, Ruy claims that God gave me to him to add some excitement in his life. I'm not quite sure what excitement means, but I'll take it as a nice thing...

A long day

Yesterday Ruy and I spent a long day with each other. I had to pick him up as my mom wanted me to test drive my new car with Ruy. Ruy was so excited about the car, I wish I could share his excitement but to me a car, is a car, is a car.

We then proceeded to go to dampa. On the way there we missed three turns, and got caught by the Makati police once...it was already a long day after just an hour into our trip.

Finally we reached dampa, needless to say the food was AMAZING!! Ruy did an excellent job in marketing and choosing the menu...I can still taste it now...haaaayy.

After that we went to the house of Veluz. Let me just say that for 2 marikina based people, Veluz' house is so unbelievably far! Grabeh kakaloka. When we got there we had to wait a little while as the person before me came in late. Then it was my turn.

I now understand why people are obsessed with Veluz. She's something else! She was like a psychologist really looking into your character and personality and finding a gown that suits not just your body, but who you are as well. I am so excited receive her quotation for the gown. I really hope I can afford her

At a Stand Still

No updates, nothing happening, no meeting with suppliers. Our wedding preps have reached a sort of stand still. I hope I'll finally have an update tomorrow.

Yehey

Paul from Paul Vincent Photography texted me today to tell me that he found the album I wanted! Yehey. I'm a bit worried about the cost of the entire thing but I'm so happy that he took the time to find it and was actually successful in doing so.

I posted the albums I wanted here. I haven't told Ruy about my preference (oh no! I think I should do that), buti na lang he doesn't read this blog. hehehe

Wow

I saw this picture of Caleruega and I was just overwhelmed. It's just so beautiful, it totally matches my theme.

People have been asking me how we ended up with this church. Truth of the matter is this church doesn't reflect my personality at all. I wanted a melancholic look for my wedding, I wanted it vintage-y and romantic. Ruy wanted it happy. I told him "I don't do happy" .

When Ruy first showed me this church I had so much against it. First, it was too happy. It was so cheerful I couldn't stand it at first. I couldn't deal with all those colors. I found it too gaudy actually. The fact that it was out of town and would cost an arm and a leg was also an important consideration. Third contention was that my lola would have a difficult time climbing it as it's too steep. And anybody who knows me knows that you don't mess with my lola. If she can't go then I won't.

Needless to say the first trip ended with Ruy so disappointed and I dissatisfied. We eventually agreed to just look around and find another church we both liked. I don't know exactly how we ended back in Calaruega. Maybe it was because we couldn't find another church. Maybe it was because Ruy really loved that place. I ended up saying okay.

We went back up there with a very smug Ruy. "What made you change your mind?", "What made you realize I was right?"...hahaha.

The church has really grown on me. And Ruy was right the distance made it all the more special. Only people who really cared enough about us would sacrifice their time, money and gasoline to go all the way to Calaruega.

Let's Fight Please

Ruy and I have been fighting more since the Discovery Weekend we attended together last July. Some people might interpret this as the failure of the discovery weekend, a waste of the 5k we spent on it. I think otherwise.

We've been together for more or less 5 years. Throughout this time we haven't perfected the art of fighting. We rarely fought, I would just keep quiet, be a bitch and say "Nothing" when he asks me what's wrong. Ruy on the other hand, keeps it all bottled up until he bursts once or twice a year. Totally unhealthy.

It was only after the discovery weekend that I began to feel comfortable expressing my anger, sadness, disappointment. Mind you I still suck at it, but at least I'm doing it. Ruy has been a bit more vocal about it as well. For the past months we've been fighting every time we're together. Last week we did, but we were able to resolve it immediately before parting ways.

Yesterday, he expressed irritation after which I expressed irritation, but no fighting. I think we're getting better at it!

I told him 3 weeks ago that I find the fighting refreshing, I know that I can get mad, and he can get mad as well without us feeling the need to break up. Breaking up has never been an option.Someone once told me that it's not how many times you fight that's important, it's how many times you make up (and make-out) that defines the status of your relationship. I think I agree

Entourage Gowns

As my wedding will be in the morning, I prefer cocktail/tea-length dresses either in satin or chiffon...I don't want them to look like bridesmaids. I want them to look like they're going to a party. I want them to be able to wear the dress after the wedding